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I owed a debt I could not pay,
He paid a debt He did not owe.
God has had a plan for me. He
has had His hand on my life since before birth.
I am not sure why He chose to have mercy on me
for I feel like I am the worst of sinners. I
have forsaken His love many times, but He has
had unlimited patience and love and He assures
me this. He loves me as if I am His most
favorite child. The beauty of it is that He
loves you the same.
When I was young I attended a
Lutheran Church. I was baptized 9 Feb 1986 and
was confirmed 8 Oct 1989. I knew some of the
Bible and believed in God. I was a good person,
didn't drink, good grades in school, and more -
so I must have been a Christian. I was one who
seemed to have God when it was convenient for
me. When I prayed prayers it was for my benefit
not to deepen my relationship with Him.
By the time I graduated the high
school, I was listening to gangster rap. I
especially liked artists such as Snoop Doggy
Dogg and Dr Dre. I joined the Air Force quickly
after graduation and became Security Police. I
was acting against God in more and more ways.
However I still believed in God and Jesus so it
must have been all right.
God had a plan and even if I was
unwilling to walk it, He waited for me. He
worked miracles to draw me into a closer
relationship with Him. I was moved to Montana
and moved with a roommate who believed in God
and went to church. I soon started attending
church with Him and God taught me a lot. The
people at the church would teach me things and
helped me when I needed help. I would grow but
soon I was growing off of others instead of
feeding myself. I would eventually become one
who was like a baby who needed to be fed.
The bondages that God had freed
me from I soon would entangle myself with again.
I would battle with the flesh in the realm of
the mind. He moved me to North Carolina. There I
was put in a position where I started to be
involved in different ministries. I began to
feed myself and God was revealing more and more
of Himself.
My Christian walk has not always
been easy. I have sinned grievously against God
and people many times. There have been times
when I have wanted to walk away to live a life
of my own choosing. I haven't because I always
come back to the point where I know God's way is
better than my way.
He has placed many people in my
life and I have learned from each. I am not sure
all the plans God has for me but they are great.
He has an excellent plan for you life also. If
you don't know Jesus as your personal Lord and
Savior then please click on
Salvation to read
more.
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